I have come to understand that the harder I try to live an upright walk with the Lord the more I'm going to have to rely on him for the strength to get through the day. As I seek relief from one thing I find myself struggling with something else completely. So I realize I need to seek God for the help I need, there is nothing I can do on my own that will help me with persevering except open myself up to God and let him work in me. He has his timing for everything and if he sees fit that I suffer a problem longer then I want to then there may be more to it then I know. Something that I can still learn from it. I right this today because Satan really worked a number on me during and after church leaving me in a rather foul mood for part of the day. I knew it was Satan working but I couldn't help but let the thoughts that were invading my mind to fester. It is absolutely amazing how he can use something that should be utterly insignificant to wreck your day. Though I am truly blessed that God has granted me friends that I can open up to during times like this to just unload and have an ear to listen too.

This all reminds me of a lesson I learned the other day dealing with how we react to circumstances. I found my bicycle on the east entrance over hang with two bent rims. I was more upset then I have been in a while. I informed my RD and filed an incident report. Not long after that I read ecclesiastics 1 where it starts out "Meaningless, Everything is meaningless." then in chapel they showed the scene from "Passion of Christ" where Jesus is crucified. Well lets just say that I was starting to feel a little childish for being upset about a bike that I hardly used. I just want to Praise God for the lessons we learn out of our everyday and ask for the strength to apply what is learned.